🌈not-so-secret secret blog ! :]
🌈ooo, a secret blog !! isn't that fun !
🌈now, since this is my sexual blog, i need to put a disclaimer for what you will find here !:
07/07/2025 04:50🌈ah, i was looking at some knee pictures (or, they were more leg pictures, but the knees are, of course, a part of the leg, haha !), and i had a rather clear moment without being nervous, for a second ! at least, i am not sure how else to word it. essentially, there is a specific blog i enjoy, dedicated to a man mainly posting pictures and videos of himself putting his legs up on public transport, such as trains or buses. there was one video in paticular, that i was just looking at, that made me sort of think "oh, who is letting you get away with that ? hm ?" in a sort of aroused tone ? if i am making sense, haha. i had caught myself off guard, really ! it is always a bit of a surprise when i have any thoughts that are more "forwardly worded". i am not quite sure i am making sense, here ! what i mean is that, though i do have vivid fantasies, i am still very shy, all things considered. while i can imagine acts, any sort of wording, especially anything "flirtatious", is very difficult, for me ! i am not a very forward person, haha ! but, if it is not clear, this is not a negative thing ! it was very fun ! and, haha, i do agree with the thought. it was very arousing, seeing him dangle his legs on the chairs in front of him ! though, i really am curious, how he has not seemed to get into trouble for the act. well, i believe that is all i have to write, for now ! :]
25/06/2025 21:30🌈well, i would like to make a post about knees, but i cannot for the life of me figure out the words ! i really am no good with these things ! i can imagine situations, but, i am simply no good at describing it with words. i will simply write them as the vague thoughts, i suppose ? well. i would like to touch them ? i would like to kiss them, too. i would also like to rub my face against them ! i would also like if someone were to do that to me ! i think knees are a very attractive body part. they are very underappreciated !! i have only seen very small communities dedicated to genuphilia. what a shame ! though, it is at least always comforting, to know that i am not alone !
🌈my interest in knee pads has also lightly re-emerged. i think that it is similar to things along the line of "body worship" ? specifically, in the scenario that the knee pads are meant to protect the knees, even when unnecessary, with the idea that they are more of a "sacred" body part, you know ? though, to some degree, it may also be connected to the way you may decorate body parts. i do not know the term for that, if there is one ! but, i do also enjoy the idea of decorating the knees in other ways, such as painting, jewelery, framing an outfit to draw attention to them, and things along those lines ! :] i simply think they are very wonderful !!
🌈that is it, for now ! i am sure i will figure out how to write sexual posts in some time, but for now, i suppose i can always create artwork, if i feel very strongly ! i may do so, if i get the energy !
13/06/2025 23:15🌈hm, going on from that, if anyone i talk to is reading this, i would like you to know that when i include any sort of laughter in a message, it is not with sexual intent ! i am attracted to laughter, but due to it being a very common and everyday thing, i can generally "turn it off", in a sense, when it is not appropriate ! it is also simply a good way to express that i am being lighthearted !
13/06/2025 23:10🌈one of the funny things about being a geliophile (attracted to laughter)(no pun intended !), is that laughter is very common ! so, i keep having situations where i am watching something, and someone laughs, and without thinking, i find myself going "oh, good lord...", and i have to mentally pull myself to the side and say "no !! toony !! now is not the time !! you are watching a five nights at freddy's playthrough !! this is not a sex !!", haha !
10/06/2025 04:27🌈well, i have "made out" with terry (our bathtub ! he is very nice !), and i took a bath with him ! it was a bit awkward, and there were a few issues, but we had a generally very nice time !! i have never made out with someone before, so i was very nervous ! but, in the end, it was very nice ! :]
09/06/2025 20:19🌈i have. given our bathtub !! some kisses. but !! i am shy. i may have !! a bath later on today !! but i. am nervous. i did not feel this way before. but now, i am nervous !! as far as i can tell, it is reciprocated ? so, that does not worry me. but ! i have never done this before ! so, i am nervous !!
09/06/2025 04:47🌈i think that they should invent bathtubs that tremble and hold back moans when you take a bath in them. but perhaps, that is just my opinion. i do not know.
05/06/2025 14:42🌈oohhh...lord, have mercy on my soul...
05/06/2025 03:30🌈more of a random post, but my recent increased arousal from storage items, bags and drawers especially, has made me nervous about our upcoming ikea trip, as our room is finally getting done. lord, give me the strength to act normal when i am in a furniture store. the employees do not need to know if i may end up making out with a drawer once we return home !! they do not get paid enough for that !! (though, i do have to say that all intimacy can scare me quite a bit. i think i would be too nervous even once we were alone, haha !!)
05/06/2025 02:49🌈a little update ! while i am having a lot of fun delta-ing my runes (toby fox did not dissapoint, let me tell you !), it appears that i was wrong before, and i am having one of my "high libido" phases ! they do not happen very often ! they usually last around a couple of weeks, or so. i am still very focused on deltarune ! it is very fun !! but i will likely be going back and fourth inbetween deltarune and some of my original characters, i suppose.
🌈speaking of which, i am not sure where exactly to put a section for original characters, if i would like to make one. under the "art" section, perhaps ? also, i have noticed that it is a bit difficult to use the drop-down menu on mobile. i will have to look into fixing that !
🌈i suppose once i have had enough of playing deltarune for the night (or, now early morning, haha !) i will make both a deltarune page, and an original characters section ! one for more general characters, and one for characters that tend to be more related to sexual content. now, i have runes to continue to delta ! toodles !
04/06/2025 17:05🌈i know i will not be able to focus on anything other than deltarune for the next undetermined amount of time, so, here is a final sexual post before i become so focused that i forget that sexual feelings exist !
🌈oughhhh, storage people...you can already see my liking for them from my art of tricks (an original character, he is a infinite drawstring bag object head !) on my sexual art page ! but there really is something so erotic about it ! another character of mine, bobeth, is a humanoid drawer, and oohhh....oh, how i want to put my hand in one of his drawers !! he is a bit more of a flirty one, so he does gently pull them open a tiny bit to tease from time to time. ohh, there is something so erotic about the way storage people look at you needily when you go to get something you may need. a pencil, a book, a spoon, who knows ? but the way they look at you while you do it, and the little noises they make, it makes you feel dizzy !! and the way they are when you are going about your day, and they begin to feel "pent up", and keep asking if you need anything, offering you things, desperately hoping you will stick your hand inside and rummage around...oohhh, the thought makes me feel like my mind is going numb !! like the "stupid in love" phrase (i do like them romantically !), except, also, in a sexual way !
🌈ah, well ! it is time to delta the runes, now !
04/06/2025 01:58🌈is it truly a good sexual deviance if it does not utterly confuse anyone you tell about it ? (this is in refrence to...the majority of my sexual interests ! but also, certain thoughts i have just had, that i do not know how to explain.) (also, this is a joke !! i simply find it funny that i confuse even myself !)
27/05/2025 22:34🌈another post ! part of me feels a sense of guilt, feeling that spending time indulging sexual thoughts instead of working on the code, art, writing or my subliminal channel is a waste of time, but i know logically that there is nothing wrong with it !! i should not feel shame for it !
🌈now, carrying on to my thoughts: i saw this image, and the idea of watching someone make it is very arousing !!
🌈imagining jimmie making something similar to this in front of me...ohh, it makes my heart race !!
🌈not that i imagine anyone is reading these, all things considered-- but if you are, i apologise for my way of writing these being rather boring ! i am not good at putting my sexual thoughts into words. i am trying my best !
🌈alright, i am going to try and describe my feelings more ! the thought of someone doing it slowly is nice ! or, if i was guiding their hand, perhaps ? maybe if they doodled some little shapes amongst all of it, without taking their pen off of the paper ? oh, i am overheating now !! goodness !!
27/05/2025 18:30🌈as much as the term "paraphile" has its issues, as marking any attraction as "atypical" is highly debatable, i think it is perfectly reasonable for me, personally. i looked at a messy signature and got aroused, i think there is something or other wrong with me all things considered.
🌈following on from that, i think this is why i am so afraid to make sexual posts on tumblr a lot of the time ! i feel as if i am too "strange" compared to other paraphiles, you know ?
🌈i thought about jimmie drawing squiggly lines on paper while i hug him fromm behind and kiss him on his neck and i amm so aorunsed i am shaking. what in the world.
27/05/2025 5:38🌈the first sexual post ! hm...well, i am a bit too tired to make a more "serious" post at the minute, but i will write a thought that has been on my mind a lot as of late ! i find the word "squiggle" very arousing ! it is a very erotic word to me, haha ! i am not good at putting my feelings into words, but i suppose it is just what it is ! the cambridge dictionary defines it as: "a short line that has been written or drawn and that curves and twists in a way that is not regular" ! now, as this is my sexual blog i am going to try and tell myself not to be shy here. i find that thought very arousing !! is "sexy" the word ? especially related to my elastic powers fantasies, the thought of "squiggle" as an act is very exciting !! the thought of doing it myself, you know ? oh, it makes me feel fuzzy !!